an imagined second life of weldon kees

It was on July 18, 1955, that The New Republic printed a review by Kees entitled "How to Be Happy: Installment 1053," in which the following passage appears: "In our present atmosphere of distrust, violence, and irrationality, with so many human beings murdering themselves—either literally or symbolically…." On that day his car was found abandoned on the approach to the Golden Gate Bridge. He had spoken to friends of suicide; he had also spoken of going away to start a new life, perhaps in Mexico. Scattered throughout his poems are lines which, as we read them now, seem to foreshadow this final event, whatever it may have been. If the whole of his poetry can be read as a denial of the values of the present civilization, as I believe it can, then the disappearance of Kees becomes as symbolic an act as Rimbaud’s flight or Crane’s suicide.

 

—from The Collected Poems of Weldon Kees (Revised edition): Edited by Donald Justice

Weldon Kees in Mexico, 1965

 

Although Kees apparently jumped from the Golden Gate Bridge in 1955, his body was never found.

 

 Evenings below my window

 the sister of the convent of Saint Teresa

 carry brown jugs of water from a well

 beyond a dry wash called Mostrenco.

 Today it was hard to waken,

 and I’ve been dead to the world ten years.

 They tread the narrow footbridge

 made of vines and planks, sandals clicking:

 brown beads and white wooden crosses

 between hands that are also brown.

 Over the bridge they travel in a white-robed line

 like innocent nurses to a field hospital.

 

 Exactly ten. I’ve marked it on the calendar.

 And Maria, who speaks no English,

 is soaping her dark breasts by the washstand.

 Yesterday she said

 she’d like to be a painter and sketched,

 on the back of a soiled napkin,

 a rendition of a cholla

 with her lipstick. She laughed,

 then drew below each nipple

 a smudged rose. Weldon

 

 would have been repelled

 and fascinated, but Weldon is dead.

 I watched him fall to the waves

 of the Bay, the twelfth suicide that summer.

 He would have been fifty-one this year,

 my age exactly, an aging man.

 Still he would not be a fool

 in a poor adobe house, unwinding

 a spool of flypaper from a hook

 above the head of his child bride.

 

 When she asks my name, I tell her

 I am Richard, a good midwestern sound.

 She thinks Nebraska is a kingdom

 near Peru, and I

 the exiled Crown Prince of Omaha.

 I’ve promised to buy her a box of paints

 in a shop by my palace in Lincoln.

 We’ll go back, Maria and I,

 with the little sisters of Saint Teresa

 who are just now walking across the bridge

 for water to be blessed at vespers.

—from David Wojahn, Icehouse Lights (1982)

 

 

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it’s a dog’s life: weldon kees’ canine homage

 

DOG

 

To Vincent Hugh

 

"This night is monstrous winter when the rats

 Swarm in great packs along the waterfront,

 When midnight closes in and takes away your name.

 And it was Rover, Ginger, Laddie, Prince;

 My pleasure hambones. Donned a collar once

 With golden spikes, the darling of a cultured home

 Somewhere between the harbor and the heights, uptown.

 Or is this something curs with lathered mouths invent?

 They had a little boy I would have bitten, had I dared.

 They threw great bones out on the balcony.

 But where? I pant at every door tonight.

 

 I knew this city once the way I know those lights

 Blinking in chains along the other side,

 These streets that hold the odors of my kind.

 But now, my bark a ghost in this strange scentless air,

 I am no growling cicerone or cerberus

 But wreckage for the pound, snuffling in shame

 All cold-nosed toward identity.—Rex? Ginger? No.

 A sort of panic jabbering inside begins.

 Wild for my shadow in this vacantness,

 I can at least run howling toward the bankrupt lights

 Into the traffic where bones, cats, and masters swarm.

 And where my name must be."