pulp fiction from el hombre invisible

old doc benway: "You face death all the time, and for that time you are immortal."

"Where He Was Going"
by William S. Burroughs

Farm kitchen, blinds drawn, guns propped in corners. Plates and glasses have been shoved aside to make room for road maps.

Four men lean over the maps. There is a basic sameness in the faces. Kerosene lamps cast a flickering light of death on cheekbones and lips, on the tired, alert eyes.

"Sure to have roadblocks here, and here . . . ."

Ishmael pours a generous portion of whisky into a dirty glass.

"Couldn’t we just hole up here?"

"Uh uh. They don’t rumble us movin’ out, they will close in for a house-to-house search."

"Makes sense."

"Let’s try it here."

And suddenly it occurred to him that he was going to die. Not "sooner or later"–he knew that of course, they all did–but tonight. It came in a puff, like wind that makes a candle flicker, and sick, hollow fear hit him like a kick in the stomach. He doubled slightly forward, supporting himself on the back of a chair.

It’s always like this, he tells himself: the fear, and then a rush of courage and the clean sweet feeling of being born. He read that somewhere, in an old western . . . but the fear can go on and on until you can’t stand it, it’s going to break you, and that’s when the fear breaks . . . you hope.

"Let’s go," he croaks.

He wonders if they are all as scared as he is—his gun seems clumsy and heavy in his hands, alien, malignant—sure they are, but you don’t talk about it. Click of hammers and breeches.

They are in the car now, shutting the door. He is sitting by the car door on the right side. The road is full of holes and water in the holes and deep ruts. Please God we don’t get stuck . . . seeing themselves stumbling around in the woods with the bloodhounds closing in.

"STOP! Douse the light!"

Chug chug . . . another car coming this way. Closer, the light coming around a corner of the narrow road, between heavy timber.

Ishmael gets out slow, his feet like blocks of wood, and stands in the middle of the road, his hands up. The old car sputters to a stop. Old gray man behind the wheel. He walks over slow and shows the old man the wallet.

"FBI."

Ishmael’s lips are numb. This is no pawn-shop badge; it’s a perfect replica of the real thing, with cards to go with it. Made by a forger in Toronto. Cost $150. Flashed him out of some tight spots.

The old man sits there with his face blank.

"We’re looking for some bank robbers. Holed up around here. You live here long?"

"Forty years."

"Must know the area."

He brings out a road map. "Now we’ve got roadblocks up here, and here, and here. Is there any other way they could get out?"

"Yep. Old wagon road cuts in right here. Bit rough, but they could make it. Comes out here on County Road 52. Yep, they could get clean away."

"If your information checks out, you’ll be eligible for a reward of $500." He hands the old man a card. "Just call the office in Tulsa."

"I’ll do that, I surely will." The old man drives on.

The driver studies the map under the dashboard lights: "Make it exactly five and three tenths to the turn-off."

Old man on the phone: "That’s right, posing as a G-man."

Ishmael remembers old Doc Benway saying, "You face death all the time,and for that time you are immortal."

A raccoon crosses the road, its eyes bright green in the headlights, not hurrying, slipping along . . . and it came with a rush, a sudden, evil-smelling emptiness and the raccoon was slipping lightly along the edge of it:  "Get away to Mexico . . . I’ve been there . . . only way to live . . . got five G’s in a money belt . . . go a long way down there. . . . " 

They pull around a corner and light jabs into his eyes and his brain explodes in a white flash and he is freeee, throwing the door open, jumping out in the air as the windshield explodes glinting yellow shards and Tom throws a hand in front of his face.

Very light on his feet, the tommy-gun light in his hands like a dream gun, when a sincere young agent . . . religious son of a bitch too . . . leaps to his feet, rifle levelled. He hasn’t made his dog meat yet, as they call it "Animals!" his fellow agents tell him that’s what they are, animals! and don’t you forget it…

"Get down for chrissakes!" bellows the D.S.


And Ish stitches three .45’s across the boy’s lean young chest, an inch apart. He has the touch.


"It’s an instrument," Machine Gun Kelly told him. "Play it!"

He must have dozed off in the car. Another shoot-out dream. He knows they have been driving all night, home safe now, coming down into a valley. Warm wind and a smell of water.

"Thomas and Charlie."

"What?"

"Name of this town." Ish remembers Thomas and Charlie. From here you climb ten thousand feet to the pass. Remembers Mexico City and his first grifa cigarette. Went crazy on it, wonderful crazy, wandering down Nino Perdido and everywhere he sees sugar skulls and fireworks, kids biting into the skulls.

"Dia de los Muertos," a boy tells him and smiles, showing white teeth and red gums. Very white. Very red. Whiter and redder than life, and he thought, Why not? I done it in the reform school. 

The boy has a gardenia behind his ear. He wears a white spotless cotton shirt and pants to the ankle with sandals. He smells of vanilla . . . Ish used to drink it in reform school. The boy understands. He knows un lugar. They stop to watch two pinwheels spinning in opposite directions . . . he remembers the queasy, floating feeling he got watching it, like being in a fast elevator. 

The boy is smiling now and pointing to the black space between the pinwheels as they sputter out and the blackness spreads wide as all the world and then he knew that was where he was going . . . .

Ishmael died when they picked up the stretcher.

 

—from William S. Burroughs, Tornado Alley. Cherry Valley Editions, 1989


 

Cover of the first U.S. edition.
(from http://www.books.rack111.com/burroughs-books/TA_US_CV_1989.jpg)

Tornado Alley is a collection of short stories and one poem by Beat Generation author, William S. Burroughs, written during the later years of his career and first published in 1989. The first edition of the book included illustrations by S. Clay Wilson.

Notable pieces in the collection include the poem "Thanksgiving Day, Nov. 28, 1986" and the crime melodrama "Where He Was Going," which Burroughs said on his album Dead City Radio was inspired by Ernest Hemingway’s "The Snows of Kilimanjaro."

The collection is dedicated to 1930s gangster John Dillinger, "in hope that he is still alive."

Both "Where He Was Going" and "Thanksgiving Day" were performed by Burroughs on his 1990 spoken word/musical album, Dead City Radio, with "Thanksgiving Day" also being performed by Burroughs in a music video directed by Gus Van Sant to promote the CD. In both the CD and video versions of "Thanksgiving Day", which was retitled "A Thanksgiving Prayer", Burroughs appends the dedication to Dillinger.

 

–from wikipedia: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Tornado_Alley_(book)


 

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